Thank you to everyone who took the time to fill out
my blogger questionnaire yesterday. (If you haven't yet and still want to, I'd love if you'd
click here and fill it out.) Some of the responses surprised me and so I'm certainly glad to have learned them- and now I'll be able to implement some changes around here based on your answers!
One thing I wanted to share was feedback from a longtime reader that felt like she still didn't know me. I'll be honest, that surprised me. I thought I was being open with who I am, so it was great to know that you want to know more. I've never intentionally built a line of things I would and wouldn't put on my blog but I do tend to be a fairly private person (perfect example: my bridesmaids knew hardly anything about my wedding- I chose to keep everything private). So then the question comes in of how MUCH do I share?
I promise to do a better job of letting you guys know me. And while I figure out just how I'm going to do that (I've already got a couple ideas brewing), here are five important things about me that you may not know.
1.
I am absolutely in fear that I'm not going to be a good mother, that I don't have that gene. When I was growing up I never had the desire to be a mother. I assumed I would be at some point just because "that's how you do things".
And when I met B, neither of us wanted children. At some point in our relationship, his feelings changed and he decided he DID want to be a father. The thing I'm confident in is that B is going to be an AMAZING father, he needs to be one because he'll be so good at it. So if I can just take my cues from him, I guess we'll see where it leads us.
2. I can be painfully shy. This may be one of the reasons that I haven't been as open on my blog. When I am in a room full of people I don't know, I can often be found standing awkardly away from everyone or just quietly in a circle of people. It's always been an obstacle of mine that I can't quite seem to shake- though I have gotten a little better about it as I've gotten older.
3.
I have a disturbingly low level of self confidence when it comes to my talents. It took me a long while to realize the things I'm talented in- such as writing, graphic design, and marketing. It wasn't without a little nudge from a new friend who wasn't biased (
ahem, Marianna) that I began to realize my own self-worth. And surprisingly (or not), a few weeks after I realized this,
I was offered a new job.
4.
I unfortunately don't have a good relationship with my father- though it is much better than it used to be. You may have seen in
my wedding ceremony pictures that my brother walked me down the aisle. My parents divorced when I was 4 and for awhile we saw my father every other weekend. After awhile we stopped seeing him and I didn't see him for 10 years. I was crowned Homecoming Queen and my father came to see me then for the first time. Since then he's been in and out of my life. However by then I had decided that he hadn't earned the right to walk me down the aisle when I got married. I did however still dance with him for the Father Daughter dance and included him in plenty other things during the day.
5. I constantly want, want, want. I'm not talking about material things (though I will admit that can be an issue as well). I've always been someone with HUGE dreams. I always want to do better, be better, live better, and that can be tough to handle for those close to me. I am constantly thinking of what is next, how can we change things up, where can we go to accomplish my next goal? B understands me now but there was a time that he worried he could never give me enough for me to be happy. I want to have a million different jobs, I want to live in a million different cities and live a million different ways. Luckily I've married someone who understands my desires and will help me achieve all of these goals- within reason.
If you've made it to the end of this post, I congratulate you. And I want to thank you all again for taking the time to answer my questions. I'm definitely going to change a couple things around to make things easier for you guys. And thank you so much for being such loyal reader and returning again and again.
Ps... One other easy way to get to know me? Follow me on Instagram (@comingunstitched). I'm always taking pictures of my personal life on there!
